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bachelorette @ 2009-12-14T18:01:00

2009-12-14T23:01:30Z

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.

woah

2009-12-08T22:24:27Z

Watching new Death Cab video, the version that's just the band.

Ben Gibbard has gotten conventionally hot.

He's always been dorky indie hot, but now he is HOT oh holy christ.

It's freaking me out.

You should watch it.

bachelorette @ 2009-12-07T14:23:00

2009-12-07T19:23:18Z

a song for starlit beaches

later on, on the drive home, I called her mom, from a payphone

2009-11-09T06:41:30Z

Dear Self,

Why are you awake at 1:39 when you need to get up tomorrow at 6? Why do you not make good sleeping decisions? Wtf, Self, bad plan.

Love,

Brain

long, dark blues

2009-10-21T16:48:51Z

I will try
know whatever I'll try
I will be gone
but not forever

lord knows, it would be the first time

2009-10-16T05:04:51Z

and it's only doubts that we're counting, on fingers broken long ago

I've been trying to nod my head, but it's like I've got a broken neck

I felt the wind on my cheek coming down from the east
and thought about how we are all as numerous as leaves on trees

roflcopter, lollerskates

2009-10-13T05:26:51Z

I was talking to a girl I work with when I was on my lunch break tonight. She said she grew up in Hampden all her life, so I asked her if she went to Hampden Academy (lol). She said yes, so I asked what year she graduated. She said '09 (which, oh my god, right? And that surprised me, too, because I thought she was probably 21/22, but apparently not). So I said, 'oh, well, I dated a guy from Hampden for a while, but he graduated in '02 so you never went to school with him,' something along those lines.

She gives me this shocked look. Like, I'm pretty sure her mouth was actually gaping open. So I looked at her for a second, and said, "well, I graduated in '03..." She continues the shocked look for a minute, and then tells me, apologizing, that she had thought I was a year or two younger than her. I asked how old she is, and she's 18.

Moral of the story: an 18 year old coworker of mine thought I was 16. When I am in fact perilously close to 24.

LOL and omgwtf at the same time. Mostly LOL.

Her shocked face was priceless.

bachelorette @ 2009-10-11T23:55:00

2009-10-12T03:56:16Z

Bored as shit. Am listening to Arcade Fire. Tired but don't want to go to sleep. Watch me fall asleep in this chair instead of in my bed.

but it's like I've got a broken neck

2009-10-12T02:41:31Z

and it's only doubts that we're counting
on fingers broken long ago
I read with every broken heart, we should become
more adventurous

I felt the wind on my cheek coming down from the east
and thought about how we are all as numerous as leaves on trees
and maybe ours is the cause of all mankind
give love to make more, try to stay alive

now the war is over, mussolini's dead

2009-10-07T22:01:44Z

I'm going on a picnic, and I'm bringing an apple.

VOTE NO ON 1

2009-09-12T18:08:17Z

Explosions In the Sky are my study tunes.

This week has been awkward.

Working 24 hours next week, full week of classes including one morning of field work in an elementary school (scary!), and more No On 1 volunteer stuff (= pro- gay marriage, in case you missed the memo or aren't in ME. PS if you are in ME, you should volunteer for No On 1! It's fun and important! Everyone I know seems to think that it's no big deal, obviously the law's not going to be repealed, duh - this is not good logic. Maybe in our circles that's true, but there is a whooole lot of ME that disagrees. We're a big state full of smaller conservative communities, and there are entire counties that are going to vote yes to repeal, full stop. The Penobscot office is in Brewer, by the Dollar Tree, easy to find and close by. Hint hint. Also, if you're not in ME you should donate! We need monies. I keep meaning to make a post just talking about the No On 1 stuff but I'm laaazy. Short version - if you care about same-sex marriage in ME, you need to act. There.).

ANYWAY the point of all that is that I'm so busy lately, I don't even know what's going on anymore. Upside - I keep losing weight because I'm constantly running around, not having time to eat, and then way to tired to even look at food when I finally roll home late every night. Downside - so tired. There has been so much coffee going into my body every day, it's ridiculous.

I wish people would learn the difference between "everyday" and "every day." Especially people writing official scripts for volunteer activities. There is a difference and it matters! Jeez, people.

So, um, I should probably stop procrastinating now, huh?

what now kid, which way love

2009-09-07T03:54:14Z

Status Update

Busy busy busy like a busy bee. Between classes (this semester is full of work, jeez), work, and No On 1, I feel like I've been home about twice in the past week. That looks to be the pattern for the next few weeks/months. I'm really excited about No On 1, so that's where all my free time is going. Homework is for sissies (ahem). So is sleep. And food. Also, spending way too much time in the car every day, because I still live in the boonies. Been driving between 80 - 100 miles every day for the past week.

Doing some field work in an elementary classroom this week. Couple hours Wednesday morning, working on literacy with k - 3 kids. Scary, I'm sure it'll go well but still I'm nervous.

I have tomorrow OFF from class and work AND No On 1. It's a miracle. Thinking I might get to spend some time in the sun, which would be really nice.

Think it's too cold to go swimming by now?

one night, yeah, and one more time

2009-08-07T04:34:06Z

The world is a ridiculously small place.

That is all.

blue blue windows behind the stars

2009-07-24T15:24:58Z

Fireworks are America's spirit animal.

let me use his decoder ring

2009-07-22T03:42:55Z

Things are going very well.

In short...

Volunteered with Equality ME the other night, doing phone banking - that was quite the thing. I guess I'm going again on Thursday night. I wouldn't say that I was super fond of the experience (read: I kinda sucked), but a) my friend is really into it, b) volunteering is a good thing to do (and good on resumes), c) it's something I actually do care about a lot, and d) it's something to do.

I have a job now - I am officially a Target employee (LOL) - tomorrow night is orientation, oh geez. I'm nervous but soon it'll be done. And if stupid high school kids can handle working at Target, so can I, right? I am in fact capable of learning new things.

School is going very well. Taught a micro lesson today, and overall it was good. I made some "kindergarteners" (classmates) stand in a circle and make up a story, like you do as a warm-up in theater - it was fun.

(It was quite the exciting story. Billy and Suzie went out to play and found a ring and ran from a dragon and went through a fireswamp and got lost but then found their way back home (one of the kids in this class is inordinately fond of LOTR).)

I'll be done my summer class on Friday, so this week will be a few very hectic days and then I'll be finished.

So. Basically I'm pretty good right now.

<3

(hopefully I'm not jinxing myself here)

overheard at rehearsal dinner...

2009-07-10T13:10:05Z

"...eating nachos and reading Graham Greene."

bachelorette @ 2009-07-06T16:31:00

2009-07-06T20:39:28Z

with every mistake
we must surely be learning

bachelorette @ 2009-05-16T20:49:00

2009-05-17T00:50:39Z

Opinion: "I Want It That Way" = one of the best pop songs ever recorded, ever, ever.

the girls down by the strip-tease shows go

2009-05-17T00:06:26Z

Could anyone upload me some Tom Waits? Or maybe link me to dl somewhere? I am flat broke, so I can't actually buy anything per se. And I'm feeling really in a Tom Waits mood, but I don't have very much of his stuff (my dad's got a couple cds, but they're still in "storage" in our garage somewhere, long story). I have Rain Dogs and Real Gone, and I'm about to dl Alice (I had Mule Variations but lost it somehow). I would love anything else, if anybody's got it.

Unrelated - Jeff Buckley's cover of "If You See Her, Say Hello" is about 4000 times better than the original. Y/Y?

Holly's inconsolable, unhinged and uncontrollable

2009-05-15T03:34:26Z

southtown girls won't blow you away
but you know that they'll stay

Lately, when I've gotten high I've gotten mopey (hasn't been all that often - two or three times in the last two weeks). And listened to the Hold Steady. Stoned philosophy - it's both disheartening and reassuring to think that the things that are meaningful to you don't have meaning to anybody else. I'm cutting myself off there.

he likes the warm feeling but he's tired of all the dehydration

2009-05-10T06:13:58Z

boys and girls in america
when they kiss they spit white noise

POLL - Very Important!

2009-04-07T16:47:19Z

Oxford comma: Y/N?

I believe my feelings on this may already be known... But I want to know what you think!

down in the valley / up in the dark blue

2009-01-27T03:10:18Z

when you get sober
will you get kinder?
cause when you get uptight
it's such a drag

when I get older
I won't remember
until that day comes
I've got something on you

under the blacklight
out in the garden
into the pale moon
I'll be waiting

under the blacklight
under the blacklight

even dead men
lie in the their coffins
it's been a long time
since you felt better

no sweat, I've got aim like a mack truck

2008-12-01T01:13:24Z

Yet another reason Amanda Palmer is way cooler than you and I will ever be... The music video for her song "Leeds United" and the ensuing chaos.

"I Voted Today"

2008-11-04T20:01:03Z

VOTED.

Drove over with my dad. The town I live in now is so small that there was only ONE (1) booth. There were four women sitting around knitting, manning the polls. My father and I were (obviously) the only other people there. As we left, two old guys came in, so I guess it was a busy afternoon. I think the population of Amherst is only around 250, and god knows how many of those are even old enough to vote.

Now that I've voted I'm actually starting to feel anxious.